***IN A FEW WEEKS NOW, I MAY KNOW THE FRUITS OF HARD WORK AND PRAYERS, OF DESTINY AND FATE, AND ESPECIALLY OF FAITH. IN A FEW WEEKS, THE LIST OF BAR PASSERS WILL BE RELASED. ALLAH KNOWS WHAT MY FUTURE HOLDS FOR ME. IN THE END, I WOULD LIKE TO BELIEVE THAT ALLAH HAS BETTER,IF NOT BEST, PLAN FOR ME.
I TRULY PRAY FOR THE BEST =)
BEAR WITH MY REPOST… I FIND THE WORDS TRULY FITTING FOR THE TIME BEING.
“Truly, the Bar Exam is a humbling experience. While the Civil Code provides that ignorance of the law excuses no one…the same doesn’t apply to bar examinees =) otherwise, all 6,533 examinees should and must pass =) just kidding…
Anyway, allow me now to say it all…to bare it all… for my peace of mind’s sake and to keep my sanity while waiting for the results.
The Bar Exam is a realization of one’s ignorance, self-limit and mortality. Yes, I thought I was prepared, but lo and behold! I was not. I thought I was smart, even intelligent enough…I was just like everybody. I thought the 6-month review will compensate my shortcomings in lawschool…it did not. I thought I could conquer it…I did but with reservations of passing it. But nonetheless, I am still hopeful that my Bedan education is not in vain.
If I was awed and fascinated with lawyers before, I have twice, even thrice, respect and regard to lawyers now. They are somehow immortals to me. Passing the Bar is utterly difficult. It is difficult.
I am now in bended-knees before Allah swt…in tears and with a praying hands to the heavens above that if He’ll not grant my prayers, I hope He’ll grant my father’s and my mother’s prayers… my husband’s…my family’s…and that of my friends’. I am only human, sinful but regretful; hopeless but hopeful. If I pass, Alhamdulillah. All the Glory and Praises to Allah. If not, surely I do not have a choice but to take it again and accept that He have better plans for me than I can dream for myself.
Acknowledgement:
After all the rumblings, I wish to say, with all sincerity, my heartfelt gratitude to everybody who rode my journey to La Salle.
The 2008 San Beda BarOPerations and Atty Delson. I must admit that we have the best bar operations in the country.
My Sororitas Reginae Juris sisses and LP Grace Tria. If I was a hardcore sis before, I am now a diehard sis. Sisterhood to its truest sense.
My bar buddies: Hasminah Paudac who ordered a tarpaulin and posted it to the halls of San Beda. Sis Jas Garcia, I can’t thank you enough for keeping up with me. Ron Decano, sobrang thank you sa lahat.
My hubby, Salahudden Usman, who made my review and the September easier forme; who never failed to inspire me every Sunday night when I cried of fears of failing it and until now when suddenly breakdown.
My daughter, Rania, who looked up to me with great admiration and inspiration…thank you for the encouraging letters; who always will believe I will top the Bar. I am praying I will not disappoint you.
To my Ome (mother-in-law) who always reminded me to say a prayer before i read the questionnaire and who fervently prays my success.
To my dadi and mami…Allahu Akbar! I could cry thinking of them as they stood and waited for me in La Salle. Ya Allah, please make them happy.
To everyone who cheered and believed in me… Atty Toie…AMAL family…Atty Bantao…Atty Aquil…my Microbes friends especially Atty Jade..my Cyphrs bestfriends…my cousins…SALAMAT is not enough to express my gratitude.
Now, while waiting…please don’t stop praying for me. Now and more than ever…I need your prayers. Your du’as will make it happen,Inshallah.
Again, thank you and wish me luck.”
